Still hurting....

...my body is still screaming about something. I've decided that beginning Sunday, I am totally eliminating wheat and I will do it for 90 days. That should be plenty of time to see if that is the issue. I beginning to wonder if I'll every know what it's like to live without pain for more than a 24 hr period here or there. ...Tommorrow my angel might have turned 2 yo. April 6th was my due date before I miscarried. I had thought that I would have a baby in my arms by now to help cull the heart break. But alas, it's still so far away. I just pray that we make it to China before this time next year. I'm not sure if I can stand yet another "almost birthday" without a baby in my arms to call my own.