Well, I'm in shock today.

I went to my GYN to have her take a look at my right breast where I had a core needle biopsy. During my last two SBE, I've notice that the right side squares off. I seriously thought she'd look at it, say it's from the CNB and send me on my way. Instead, I'm getting another Mammogram (joy of all joys) and being referred to a general surgeon for a second opinion. She doesn't know what to make of it. There is no lump and the area is discolored which is said appears to be "tissue death". This dr. has been with me for the whole odyssey of the last four years. We are naming our daughter after her. If she wrinkles her brow, I know she's serious, so I'm trying not to read too much into this. It could still just be nothing. Anyway, part of me keeps waiting for the other shoe to drop and derail our adoption. Some days, that's what makes waiting so hard--knowing that it's so far out and there is so many things to go wrong. Argh!! I've been disappointed so many times that keeping the flame of hope burning is tough. Almost like having green wood.

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Evening Post: However, let's look at what was good about today? TWO DAYS IN A ROW WITH NO PAIN PILLS!! I was sore when I went to bed last night. It rained in the evening. It was more sore when pressure was on the joints, but not bad. I still took an NSAID to bring down the inflammation.I'm hangin' on to that.