The funk is lifting.....

..... but I'm still sorting out my emotions from the last week. I did drive up to Palmer last night and visit with a good friend. That helped. I didn't sleep all that well last night b/c my legs started hurting in the middle of the night. They are still sore today. I need to go get something to eat so I can take my medicine. The room that is going to be the nursery hasn't been used for anything other than temp storage since we moved in during Summer 2001. So for 5 years it has waited for a baby to fill it up. I'm thinking that doesn't help my emotional state much either. I'm thinking of just turning it into a sewing room. If and when we finally become parents, turning it in to a baby's room won't be that difficult. So I'm thinking of just boxing up everything we've collected and stuffing it in the closet and making a sewing room. I can get all that stuff out of my office and if I can leave my sewing machine out, I'll get my projects done. I can even set up an area to work on scrapbooking. I really don't see the point in leaving the room unused for another possible 3 years.

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I just got a call from WACAP. That so made my day. I feel so much better. If a baby falls in our lap, they'll work with us and still let us keep our application in with China. They said the original rule of putting you on hold was b/c it was a six month wait from DTC to referral. She was also disappointed to hear that the opportunity to adopt last week fell through and that the local agency wouldn't work with us. Also, she said that it was likely that Dr. C wasn't aware of hospital policy b/c it really *is* rare that a dr. would facilitate an adoption these days. She says that it rare now for a dr. to know about the need for an adoption plan at birth. She did say that there really is know way to predict if China will speed up and did assure me that dispite the internet rumors, that China really is backlogged b/c they have more Dossiers than they've ever dealt with. I'm feeling more relaxed and much better about everything. I just wish that this worked like a pregnancy and you had an approx. arrival date of your child. Argh!

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I have an u/s in the morning (7am--migod what was I thinking) to give the radiologist a chance to compare with last November's u/s as there is no Mammogram for her to compare to. If everything looks the same then I'll know right away. If not, then I have no idea when I'll know anything. Prayer for "no change" would be welcomed. However, no change wouldn't explain the dorky look my right breast has. OH well, just no change would mean, no worries. Thank you!