Another MAJOR Decision

I've finally decided that I've reached the end fo the line. I can't handle the pain any longer. On September 20, 2005, my uterus will be served an eviction notice. She will take with her my ovaries and my tubes. This procedure is called LSH/BSO. AKA laparoscopic supra-cervical hysterectomy with bitaleral salingo-oopherectomy. At the point in the game, it appears that a laparotomy won't be needed, BUT if she determines the uterus is to large or there is too much scar tissue, she'll have to switch to laparotomy. We are hoping that reality will be what it appears. Dr. C will also use the da Vinci® Surgical System. She said that my case is a perfect candidate for it. I'm all for progress, especially since this robot is suppose to revolutionize surgery for Endometriosis. And since I want Dr. C to become the best Endo surgeon in our state, I agreed. My boss has be wonderful about this whole thing. I worried about it, but she was very understanding even though I've only been there 2 months. If I have the LSH, then I may be able to return to work for 1/2 days. If not, then Dr. C won't release me for 4 weeks. Pretty much everyone who knows at this point has been very supportive. While I would have done with or without my family and friends, it certainly makes it not so rough to know that I have a cheering section in my corner. They've been with me the whole journey through pain and heartache. So that's about it. I'll come here over the next fews weeks to write out my feelings and such as my surgery date approaches. We are at peace with the situation, but I imagine there will be emotions and grief to work through before and after. One thing I wish ppl would acknowledge is K's losses as well. My hyst effect him too. He is grieving the loss of dreams. He has to sit and watch me suffer. He has to live with me as my hormone wack out. He is my rock and anchor. I thank the Lord every day for blessing me with such a godly man, who cares for me deeply and who tries hard to walk in the path that God has laid before us. I know that he is going to need time to chew and come to terms with the fact that the only way to get back my life is to finally sacrifice my womb. He understands this, but his heart is having a hard time. I dn't blame him. I've had to work on this for 10 yrs (suffered fro 19yrs). Anyway, off to bed for sleepyhead.