Detour or not to detour

Just when you think every thing is final another option pops up that you didn't anticipate. *sigh* A friend came forward with three Gonal-F pens and offered them to us for the cost of shipping them to us. {insert mouth dropped simile here} My first reaction was \o/ Praise the Lord. Then I began to doubt. Did these cross my path b/c I was to use them or did they cross my path b/c I need to really look hard at why I stopped treatments. I still dream of getting pregnant. I worry about this being an answer for God and if I decline them that I'll be declining God. KWIM? It's like the story of the guy who is in a flood on his house and prays for the Lord to save him and God sends a boat, a helicopter etc. The guy declines each offer of help saying that God will save him. Well once in heave b/c he died, he asks God why He didn't save him and God replies, "I tried three times". What if this is one of those times? On the other hand, I'm worried that if I'm no supposed to take them, that I'll wind up making things so much more worse than now. *sigh* What a delimma. Half of me wants to take them and the other have just wants to fly to China and bring home a little baby. My heart still wants to have a baby from my womb and still adopt. Adoption is getting stronger for sure. Do I take the detour route to China and try just once more? Do I take the straight route to China and decline the offer?