Life is cruelly unfair at times....
Just as I feared, I get to be the "last man standing". This sucks!! My heart is just hurting right now. A year ago I join an online group of women who were TTC#1 after m/c. It was a great group of supportive ladies, but as one by one (or in groups as it sometimes happened), they've moved on. Some are now mommies, some are "in waiting", some moved, some moved on to adoption, and me. It's hard to have to now go the the Pregnancy board to talk to any of the girls and get support. I've tried to set up a "general group" for everyone to post in, but they didn't seem to think that was what they wanted. So in essense, but my support base has crumbled. Time to move on, which is really hard to do at times. I wish that I had a better IRL one. I wish there was a support group somewhere around here. Alone is a very lonely place to be and it seems that is where I now find myself. Life is just cruelly unfair at times.... Now I have to go on a "break" until December to look into having my tonsils removed. Apparently they are so big that they are almost touching. I'm not very happy at the thought of another month wasted. I'm not thrilled with going "under the knife" again, either. I'm not scared, just not thrilled. Rhonda
posted by Rhonda at 10/28/2004 10:34:00 AM
3 Comments:
Rhonda, Sweetie, you're not alone! I'm sorry your heart feels broken now. Take care of yourself... and getting healthy is the most important thing!
Love ya,
Gail
Rhonda,
I feel your pain. I joined TTC #2 and Grads over a year ago and it seems like I am the only one who is TTC that is still posting. Every once in a while one of the grads post, which is nice, but the support has changed. I see that if this is not a successful BFP cycle you will be taking a break, but what happens if it is a successful cycle. Praying for you!!! BTW, your chart looks fabulous!
Alethea
Rhonda,
I feel terrible. I'm so sorry you feel like you have lost your support base...and to have your worst fear come true. I remember after my m/c posting on the Pregnancy Loss board for the first time. It was my biggest fear at the time. But no matter how you feel please remember that we love you so much and we are going to support you no matter what journey you go through...and you ARE going to be a mommy so keep that chin up.
Love you, Joanna (rayj)
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